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Friday, August 22, 2003

its 312am now... i still cant sleep cause ive got a project tt i need to hand up tomorrow...ermm..i mean in a few hrs time..

i DUN WANNA LOSE JAKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
it hurts me so much..i realli dun want this to happen man..
hai..i am sooooo FAN...... why does things have to turn out this way??
why?? why????
i wanted this to last as long as it could..but it has to end...but so soon?? for what??? so soon for what???? haiIIiiIiiIIIIIIIIIII........

right now, im feeling so sad and down.... cant do my work, cant seem to do anythng...
oh man...i dunno wat to do.... im going mad...

first it was her...now it HAS to be me....
think its like, this is how its fated to be...
it sucks...realli sucks...

everthing happened so fast....and ended so soon...
man!!! i wanna cryyyyyyyyy.....
i dun like it when pple start avoiding me....i hope she doesnt do it...
i mean, wat's the point??? avoid for wat?? wats happened has already happened...right???

i am so so sad...
and so so lost...

i think i'll feel funny without anyone messaging me, asking whether ive eaten already around 12+ 1 in the afternoons.....

i so wanna hug her right nowWwWW ....

i just realised tt almost everything in my blog so far is all about _ _ _ _.....

zenna boxed the green apple at 3:25:00 AM

Thursday, August 21, 2003

i DO NOT THINK I CAN TAKE IT

ANYMOREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i AM GOING CRAZYYYYYY!!! SHOULDNT HAVE TOLD MY MUM ANYTHINGGGGGGGG!!!

ARGHhHHHHHhhHHHHHhhhH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HELPPPpPPPPppPppPPPpppppPPpp

i REALLI DUNNO WHAT TO DOOOOOOOOOOOO

i WANNA CRYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

NaH BeY~~~

zenna boxed the green apple at 9:00:00 PM

heYyYYyyYyyy...its been a while since i last blogged..
hai...the term test are like next week, haha..and i havent even studied... oh man.. i am so dead... and this term test tt's coming up it's like kinda important..cause it's gonna be the only exam that marketing students have..which means tt we end sch 2-3 weeks earlier than the rest...
haha..
i AM REALLI SO DEAD...

ive got my french test this sat...its gonna be a written one.. and tomorrow, ive got my french oral and listening test..man.. streSSed... ooh yah..im in class now..the teacher's talking..haha..but im not listening.. its 245pm now..classes end at 4..and im going home after this to do some work.. i need to..and i HAVE to..haha.. but i DUN waNt TooOOo

oh yah..i went shopping with my mum yesterdae..and i bought 2 new skirts and a top... i like the demin skirt that i bought from top shop,,im so happy..cause i my BIG ASS could actually fit into it!!! after trying it on, i just hd to buy it! i mean, haha..wat is the probability of me finding another skirt tt'll fit my BIG ass man?? haha..it actually costs 89/-..but..haha..i got it for i think only 49/-!! yup!!! good steal right!! and i can actually fit into it!! yay man!!! hahahaha and wat makes the skirt even better is that its a hipster skirt..so its realli cool man...i am happy!! but..and one more thing.. haha..after shopping with my mum yesterdae at topshop, i am now officially a fashIOn faST forward card holder!! haha... its good lar..can save some money the next time i shop at topshop, miss selfridge, dorothy perkins....save money = good...haha....

i cant get the stupid BRITNEY SPEARS 'im a slave for u' and "opps i did it again" song out of my head man..haha...its so stuck in my head...haha... haha...oh yah... can u imagine tt PEOPLE can actually be TURNED ON by BRITNEY SPEARS?? hahaha... *hint*hint* hahhaha.. so what man...boobs big only mah... haha...... ive got a big ASS...hahaha!!

"Get it get it, get it get it (WHOOOA)
Get it get it, get it get it (WHOOOOOA)(Do you like it)
Get it get it, get it get it (OOOHHHH)(This feels good)

i really wanna dance, tonight with you.
(I just can’t help myself)
I really wanna do what you want me to.
(I just feel I let myself go)

I really wanna dance, tonight with you.
(Wanna see you move)
I really wanna do what you want me to.
(Uh Uh Uh)

Baby, don’t you wanna, dance upon me,
(I just wanna dance next to you)
To another time and place.
Baby, don’t you wanna, dance upon me,
(Are you ready)
Leaving behind my name, my age.

I’m a slave for you. (Take that) I cannot hold it; I cannot control it.
I’m a slave (It just feels right) for you. (It just feels good)
I won’t deny it; I’m not trying to hide it. (Baby)

>>>> britney spears- slave for you.

i WANNA WATCH "DOWN WITH LOVE"!!!

im thinking of *heehee*.. _ _ _ _ right now...

zenna boxed the green apple at 3:10:00 PM

Monday, August 18, 2003

haIIiIiiii....i am sooo stressed up..the term test are coming, and ive got like soooooo many things in my head...
YES...ive told my mumalready...i just couldnt take it anymore..she was like asking ans asking and asking...i just had to tell her.... and i so regret it now..haha..i think my mum's emotionnally unstable now...*sigh*..i think i am too.... OH MAN!!!!!
i told her on the night before yesterdae... she told me she could take it and tt she was open enough..but..haha..eventually, things didnt turn out the wae i tot it wld... hai...nvm......

while i was out yesterdae,, my mum called and asked me to call EDWARD out for lunch one dae togetehr with her... i mean, come one man..what was she trying to do??? so irritating.... she's like trying to sort thigs out for me lor...she is so full of crap...she tells me that she trusts me and stuff... and i told her to trust me so tt i can sort myself out.. but she insists that i DONT KNOW that im doing... its so irritaitng.. i mean, JUST LEAVE ME ALONEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!! I KNOW WHAT IM DOINGGGGGGGGG...WTF man...
it makes me so kek.... i was out and was supposed to be having fun, but, NO..she had to call up and spoil my dae..she started talking about what i told her the night before...then i got so kek-ed tt i was crying while i was on the phone with her...she just cant seem to understand man... SHE DOESNT UNDERSTAND THAT I JUST WANT TO DO WHAT AN THAT I JUST WANNA SORT MYSELF OUT THE WAY I WANT!!!! I DONT WANT HER TO TELL ME TO BE HOME EARLIER, I DONT WANT HER TO TELL ME THAT I SHOULD SPEND TIME ALONE WITH MYSELF SO THAT I CAN REFLECT IF IM DOING THE RIGHT THINGS..I DONT WANT!!!! I JUST WANT TO DO MY OWN STUFF!!!! arghhHhhHhhhhHHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhHHHHH..man!!!! CANT SHE UNDERSTAND??

yestesdae was ACTUALLy a nice dae......i ended work at 3, then i waited at TM for my number 1 to come..we watched FReAKy friDAE...it was nice.. i enjoyed myself.. after that, we went to play pool.. played till ard 8 plus ..then we had a hard time deciding on a place to go for dinner..then we finally decided on mos burger...
i was so happy spending time with her....hai.......man...i shloud have cherished a little bit more of yester dae, cause from todae onwards, things are not gonna be the same anymore....
we're actually so into each other...had a nice time yesterdae and stuff.. but before i walked up the stairs to go back home, she told me tt she decided that we sholudnt continue being like tt anymore...yes..whats she was trying to sae was , shes doing it for my good...cause she feels there's so many problems tts happening ard me, which menas tt it just clearly shows that 'we're not meant to be together'... it's like, " WE WANT, BUT WE CANT"...hai..i am so sad.... i am so in love with her!!!!! some one help me man.,.... why does it have to be this wae?? ok fine... im not pissed with her... if tt's what she wants then fine... im ok with it, but i didnt want it to end so soon..get what i mean?? things ended not because WE both had problems with each other, things ended cause THEY HAD TO END...u know what i mean anot?? it's sooooo sad!!!!! it's like, i'm already clear of my feelings and what i want..but before anything could be done...it's already over... haIiII...
aiya..i just feell tt it ended to soon...... it's very wasTED.... and i am so sad..... realli am... *sigh*...

baBy..i'll miss u..so much...

zenna boxed the green apple at 11:54:00 AM